-Uninspired-

Alright, guys… I’m going to be totally honest with you; I often feel so uninspired. Not like the “eh, I’m not feeling this topic” kind of uninspired, but the, “eh, I’m not feeling up to working hard to get to where I want because I’m not seeing the results I want now,” kind of uninspired. Man, am I feeling that right now. Having high expectations for everything takes so much life out of life. This kind of uninspired feeling literally fits into every issue of life. Like, weight loss, school, career, relationships, friendships, even being a Christian comes with times where you have no inspiration or motivation to keep pushing. Let me tell you, it’s rough to expect so much and never see what you expected to come from a situation. I had high hopes and dreams for LMBL and though I still have those dreams, I so often lose sight of what I started this blog for. This blog is my ministry, my creative outlet, and I hope to be able to make this my career one day, but I never think about the right now of my blog.

My boyfriend made a comment that hit me harder after two hours of reminiscing in his words. He said, “you’re always talking about what you hope your blog could be and what you hope you could do with your blog, but you never talk about the right now, you’re not really doing much to grow it,” and he is so right! When I thought I was researching how to grow my blog I was really learning about the lives of other content creators and daydreaming about how I can’t wait to be like that. At that moment, I realized I won’t ever reach that far until I start building my staircase. But when I start learning about how long it could take, how much work it is and how I’m not seeing any results… I get uninspired.

You and me both right? I know I’m not alone in this. That’s why I started this blog. I want you, my beautiful and strong reader, to know you’re not alone in this world. I am with you, it’s E X H A U S T I N G. But you have to keep working hard and build that staircase. I read a tweet this week that said, “David brought a rock to a sword fight. Don’t underestimate the tools God gave you,” and there it was, a spark. I constantly forget that God gives us all a rock to use in a sword fight, and just when we feel uninspired and hopeless, He tells us to throw it. David knocked Goliath out of the park…literally… (sorry I had to). Our tools will have the same effect when we use them for God. I know that whatever happens to my blog is in God’s hands but I’m going to really start working for what I want because God blessed me with this tool and it’s time I start knocking some walls out of the park with it. – A