– With a Purpose –

It’s about that time that I experience something with weight that I can write about to help people who may be experiencing the same problems. With Miss Rona around, people are losing their jobs, their family, their fellowship time, and so much more.

So this post is a message for Rona herself…

Unfortunately, Miss Rona, no one really likes you. Out of spite, I’d blame you for my feeling of lacking purpose in this season. You have also made it nearly impossible to see my boyfriend. Because of you, I haven’t left the house since the first week of March, except for church service recordings, and I have been so bored that I’ve been using retail therapy to solve it and I’m not making any money because you made my job nonexistent for as long as you are here. Yes… I’m holding a bit of a grudge.

(Disclaimer: I’m referring to the Covid-19 virus… I’m sure all the ladies out there named Rona are very nice and have caused no such issues for anyone.)

I’m sorry if I hurt your feelings, but it’s the truth… But, even having caused everyone and their mother to hate you, you have brought some good into peoples lives. Slowly, humanity has been proving that there is still good left in the world. From helping people with groceries, to birthday parades, people all around the world are coming together. Obviously, better circumstances would have us working along side one another for any reason besides a pandemic but beggars can’t be choosers. Humanity is turning its eyes to God for hope more than ever before. From personal experience, I have been in my bible more than I have been in a very long time. But, I still feel like I’m lacking purpose. Before you came around I was useful, I helped everywhere I could and was always willing to do what was needed for anyone. But now? I’m stuck at home. I migrate from my bed to the couch back to my bed then to the dining room on a rotating cycle with absolutely nothing to do except school, eat, shop, Netflix, and bible reading late at night.

I expressed to my boyfriend the feelings I had and once again he spoke so much truth that I had to write it in this message to you. I told him I felt like I had no purpose because my help wasn’t needed anywhere. Boy did he, very nicely, lay the smack down. He said, “you’re thinking about this in a way that isn’t true… Even if it’s not something like doing what you want to do, you’re still helping others around you.” And it’s true. I failed to recognize the things I have been doing that help, like comforting friends, posting encouraging verses, supporting people in their journeys of reaching their goals, using my blog to touch people in need, and helping out in recording the worship sets for my church. Everything I do is with a purpose.

Last week I decided to read the book of Esther during my time in quarantine. Honestly, I started reading it because it has so much drama and it’s really entertaining, but just like any book in the Bible, it has so much wisdom and truth. In Esther 1, King Ahasuerus, an Indo-Iranian, (I have no idea what that is, if I’m being totally honest) crowned Esther, a jew, (no one knew this at the time) as his queen. Then, the King appointed an official named Haman as his vizier (which is basically a manger). In 3, Haman got really mad at Esther’s cousin and the King’s highest advisor, Mordecai (also a Jew), for not bowing down for him, even though it was the King’s orders. He was so mad that he sent out a kill order to all the lands he possibly could for all the Jews to be terminated. Stay with me now I’m almost at my reason for his history lesson. In 4, After dozens of Jews are killed and people are mourning and fasting, Mordecai comes dressed in a sack (literally) to the king’s gates and tells Esther what is happening so she can talk to the king and convince him to make it stop. Ok, now that you’re all caught up, one verse that stuck out to me as he was telling her the news, was verse 14, “…And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” Like dude… I N E E D E D that!! God is putting me where I am for a reason!!! I’m in this season for a reason and not a single season comes without reason!! I am not without purpose, I never was and never will be!! You, Miss Rona, can’t take away my, or anyone else’s, God-given purpose. And to top it off, no pandemic can take my trust in God away! I will declare this now and after death, don’t ever underestimate the power of the bible, God really does speak through it!

Sincerely,

A believer who’s going to look away sip her tea before letting you bring any negativity around again.

P.S. You and your virus friends can never win because Jesus already defeated death. Nice try.